Beautifully Broken (Beautifully Series, Book 1) Page 6

  I remove my cloths and join her in bed, gathering her against my skin. She flinches at my touch and her head pops up as she looks around trying to identify her surroundings. Even in the dark I can tell she’s been crying. The moonlight shines on her tear–stained face. She drops her head back on the pillow gazing into my eyes.

  “How was your date?” Her voice distant and cold.

  I shrug not wanting to talk about anything that happened with Alice.

  “Did you fuck her?”

  “No,” thank god I didn’t because I really don’t want to lie to her.

  She shivers as I run my hand down her arm, “You smell like her.”

  I was so excited to have her in my arms I forgot to wash away Alice’s scent. “She kissed me,” I tell her knowing if I don’t give her something she’ll never stop digging.

  She pushes her body closer to mine, burrowing her head under my chin. As I begin to drift she whispers into my chest, “Don’t hurt me again.”

  Her words form a fist around my heart.

  I wanted to hurt her tonight.

  I wanted to hurt her for choosing Lucas.

  I don’t anymore, I just want to love her.

  The next morning Ella is a cold shell of the woman I love. She mopes around the apartment like she’s lost. After being mute all through breakfast I decide I need to take her out before she goes deeper into her cocoon. Of course she refuses. I have to hold her down and strip her sweats from her body to finally get her to get dressed.

  She comes out of the room looking sexy as ever in tight jeans, fitted t-shirt and heeled boots. I adjust my growing erection and she finally smiles at my efforts. She loves the affect she has on me.

  I take her to the sky deck but she absolutely refuses to even enter the building.

  “No Liam, you know I’m afraid of heights. Your rooftop patio makes me nervous, this is out of the question.” She grips my hand her eye wide and anxious.

  “You’re not afraid of anything Ella. Let’s just explore the building. You don’t have to step out on the ledge.” I urge her on with my eyes until she finally gives in with a nod.

  Her death grip on my hand loosens as we go thru the exhibits but she freezes up at the elevator. I tug her in and wrap my arms around her soft curves as she leans her ass against me, her sweet smell enveloping me, making my cock twitch. She rears her head back and cocks an eyebrow at me.

  “I’m shaking with fear and you want to fuck,” she smirks at me. The man next to her glances over, running his eyes over her body, he snaps his head away after seeing my murderous glare. Smart guy.

  “I always want you,” I whisper into her ears, pulling her up closer against me. When we get off the elevator she grips my bicep, shielding her body behind mine. She so freaking cute, she can hold her own against me any day but put her 103 stories up and she’s cowering behind me.

  “You know how to conquer fear, don’t you?” I ask her. She looks at me annoyed by my comment. She knows the answer she just doesn’t want to do it. “You have to face it head on.”

  “I’m not stepping on that ledge Liam.” I push her ahead of me wrapping my arm around her waist to prevent her escape. I slowly walk her closer to the ledge as she tries to dig her heels into the floor.

  “It’s a glass ledge Liam, what if it breaks?”

  “It won’t. Remember how hard I fucked you on my glass desk,” I whisper into her ear, loving the way her body trembles just thinking about it. “Glass is stronger than you think.” When I finally get her unto the balcony I have to pry her hands from her face to get her to glimpse at the view. She quickly gets down and heads for the elevator before I can stop her. I’m satisfied at getting her up there even though we were headed down the elevator less than five minutes later.

  She’s so relieved to be out of the sky deck that by the time we made it to the sidewalk she is all smiles. Sultry seductive smiles that promise me hours of pleasure when we get home.

  Chapter 7

  Isabella

  I walk into my office the next day still riding my Liam high. That man pulled me out of my huff yesterday and got me to face my fear. It’s like he sensed the inner battle I was having with my fear and made me face it. I know the rest of my fears will be no where as easy to face as yesterday but I can see a possibility now. Standing out on that glass ledge I realized my fear wouldn’t suffocate me.

  After the sky deck we ate lunch at a bistro and laughed about any and everything. He brought up my family again but I ignored him by changing the subject, one fear is all I could face in one day. The past would have to stay buried for a while longer. The burden on my shoulder always feels a lot lighter around Liam, even when he was prying. Soon as the door to his place closed I was all over him, practically ripping the cloths off his body. He’d been teasing me all day with that delicious bulge in his pant and I couldn’t wait to get to it.

  He stood there all calm and collected, not even making a move to touch me as I tore at his clothes. If it weren’t for his rock hard erection, I would’ve thought he was uninterested. I step back and remove my cloths slowly, knowing he loves to watch me strip. He begins caressing himself to ease the tension as I drag my thong off and throw it at his face. He catches it with his other hand, puts the crotch against his noise and sniffs it.

  He’s so sexy standing there totally naked with my panties in one hand and his cock in the other. Moisture begins to leak down my legs, I wipe it up with my finger. I place that finger in my mouth and suck on it, watching his eye flare. I know I broke his resolve as he marches over to me.

  He drags me to the couch and pushes me over the arm with my ass in the air.

  Smack! I start as his palm hits my ass. “You’re such a dirty girl. Did you like tasting yourself?”

  “Umm…yes”

  Smack! This time I’m ready for it. The stinging sensation excites me. I stick my ass up further anticipating the next one. He runs his palm over my wetness. Chills run up my spine as he grazes my clit.

  Smack! This time when he smacks me his palm is wet with my juices. The sting causes my pussy to tingle. I push my ass against his hand urging him on. He grabs my hip, spreads my thighs and slams into me. I scream out from the impact. His pounding rhythm causing my breast to jiggle and my nipples rub against the couch, the friction sending jolt of pleasure to my pussy. He grabs a handful of my hair and continues to piston into my soaked folds.

  “Come,” he demands letting go of my hair to grab me by the thighs. He spreads them wider shifting his position so he’s hitting my g-spot with every thrust. Flashes of bright lights dance behind my eyes as the pleasure become too intense. Liquid gushes down my leg everytime he pulls out. My channel contracts holding his cock in a vise grip. He continues on, gritting his teeth from the pleasure. By the time I scream out my second orgasm I see stars behind my eyes and I pretty sure I’m on the verge of passing out from the pleasure.

  He roars loudly as he shoots into me, his warm seed mixing with my nectar. He continues pumping his hips until my pussy has sucked every last ounce of pleasure from his body, his heavy limbs collapsing over me. I can still feel his cock twitching between us matching the tremors running through our bodies.

  Earth-shaking.

  It’s the only word that can begin to describe the feelings I experience in this man’s arms.

  A knock on my office door interrupt my wet daydream.

  “Come in.”

  Alice strolls in and drops a folder on my desk, her usually radiant eyes dark and melancholy. She turns to leave without a word.

  Odd.

  “Are you alright?” I don’t want to ask but she looks so sad. Maybe I just want to know if this has something to do with her date with Liam, “How was your date?” She sighs loudly, returning to plop her ass in the chair across from me.

  “Do you think I’m sexy?”

  What?

  “I mean do you think a man like Liam Maddox would find me attractive?”

  “Uhh…sure” what am I
supposed to say? That I don’t want him to think anyone is sexier than me.

  “Well the date was good, he was quiet but attentive. Then he takes me back to my place and things are really looking up. Just when I know I have him he walks out without a word.”

  “Uhh…maybe he didn’t want to rush things.” God I really wish I never asked her anything. I don’t want to know about her and Liam.

  “I mean how is a women supposed to feel when a man leaves her naked on her knees, panting for him.”

  “Wait-What!” I didn’t mean to scream at her; I didn’t but-what the fuck!

  “There I was,” she continues getting up and pacing in front of me. “Totally hot in nothing but my thong, I had him. And when I tell you I had him, I mean I had him down my throat and it was so delicious. Then he just pulls away, gets dressed and leaves.”

  I don’t even hear anything past him being down her throat. The fire at the pit of my stomach is roaring so loudly.

  “Alice,” I cut off her storytelling. “I’m sorry but I have an important phone call I have to make, can we continue this later.”

  “Oh-okay” she says making her way out the room. I dash into my bathroom and heave up my entire breakfast. After I’ve thrown up everything I ate the sick feeling in my stomach remains. I brush my teeth and return to my office throwing myself into my work. The graphic images replay in my mind over and over until I can’t stand it anymore. At three I let Alice know I’m leaving. I walk past her with my head down, not able to stomach looking at her face.

  ********

  Liam is out on the patio talking on his phone when I arrive. I drop my briefcase and blazer on the couch making my way towards his room. I grab my duffel bag from the back of the closet and quickly begin throwing all my belonging in it. I don’t know how much time I have before he ends his phone call but I need to be done by then. I rush into the bathroom grabbing my make-up kit and toiletries, zip up the bag throwing it over my shoulder. Liam sees me trying to make an escape through the glass doors and rushes in, hands raised to the air in question.

  “Where the fuck are you going?” he roars pointing the phone at me.

  “You lied to me. I’m leaving.”

  He hits end on his phone and tosses it on the kitchen counter. He marches thru the living room to stand in front of me. “Ok I’ll bite; what did I lie about?”

  I cross my arms as if to shield my heart. “You told me nothing happened with Alice. Her wrapping her lips around what’s supposed to be mine is not Nothing!” I scream into his face. “Last time I checked that’s called getting head.” His eyes close as he sighs in defeat. I tilt my head shooting daggers at his beautiful face waiting for his excuses to start.

  “I didn’t say nothing happened, I said I didn’t fuck her.” he starts

  “You fucked her mouth you dick!” I’m so angry I can’t see straight. His face blurs in front of me, I could hear my own heart beating frantically in my ears. I try to grasp onto something, anything as my legs give out and darkness overtakes me.

  When I wake I’m laying on Liam’s bed with a cool towel on my head. I try to sit up but he sits on the edge of the bed and pushes my head back into the pillow.

  “I need to leave Liam.” Pain shots through the back of my head from my straining movements.

  “You just passed out I’m not going to let you roam the streets. Did you eat today?”

  “I threw up the breakfast you made me after my little visit from Alice.”

  He looks away anxiously biting his lip. “I’m sorry Ella, I don’t want to keep hurting you.”

  “Then we should just let go, we’ll never figure out how to make this work, you don’t trust me and I don’t trust you.”

  “Maybe you’re right but I can’t let you go. I can’t. I’m probably being selfish but I need you. When you’re not here I think I smell you and my heart aches to touch you. I want to trust you Ella. It’s just really hard for me to trust any women.”

  “I get that Anna really fucked you up but I’m not your mother. You can’t hold her sins over my head when I’ve got plenty of my own to carry around.” I can’t stay as much as my heart wants me to. I’ve never suffered as much pain as I did today. I let this thing between us go too far. I let myself hope and dream for things I never deserved and now I’m paying for it with this crushing feeling in my chest. I roll over to the other side of the bed getting up before he can stop me.

  “Ella…” he releases a heavy sigh, hiding his apparent emotions behind a hand covering his face. I make my way out of the room ignoring his plea. I grab my bag and briefcase off the living room floor, passing through the kitchen to grab a bottle of orange juice. I gulp down the juice as I race down the stairs, not wanting to pass out on a busy Chicago sidewalk.

  Liam

  I actually thought she would stay.

  A feeling of dread had come over me the minute Alice wrapped her lips around me. In that moment I knew I would lose Ella. After the amazing afternoon we shared yesterday I had hoped that she would never find out. What kind of secretary tells her boss about her sexual exploits? Ella doesn’t seem to be the type to sit around listening to office gossip.

  I grab a bottle of scotch and my phone and head out to the balcony. A quick glance at my phone reveals four missed calls. After the way I hung the phone up on my father earlier I should return his call but I don’t. He was sure to have heard some part of what happened with Ella and he will come down on me for my weakness.

  I grab a glass from the bar and pour the dark liquid, spinning it around before throwing it back. The warm liquid does nothing to warm the cold feeling that looms within me. I’ve been on guard waiting to discover what Ella would do to ruin us and I never realized I’ve been working twice as hard as her to destroy us. What happened with Alice was deliberate. I wanted to hurt Ella before she could hurt me.

  Lucas is her everything and I wanted to punish her for it. I couldn’t accept the little piece of her she offered me, I wanted all or nothing. At the time it felt like a wise decision going out with Alice to force her hand. Now that I’m left with nothing I’d give anything for that piece of her I had back.

  My phone lights up and begins to vibrate on the bar top. As much as I would like to ignore it I hit answer and prepare for more badgering.

  “Yeah,” I snap.

  “Why did you hang up? And who the fuck was that in the background?” his voice steady and calm.

  “I had to take care of an urgent matter.” I need to steer clear of this conversation. I haven’t told him anything about Isabella since I’ve been here.

  “Who was the woman?” Again steady and calm. An eruption is in the making.

  “Just someone that was keeping me company.”

  “Liam I sent you up there for one purpose, take those motherfuckers down then get back over here.” He screams into the phone. “You were screaming pretty loudly at that woman, sounded pretty serious to me. I hope you’re not letting a woman divert your purpose.”

  He has no idea how far I’ve diverted from our plan of course. Two days ago I’d abolished the plans to take back the company to run back to Palm Beach with Ella. Now I’m not sure I care about any of this shit anymore. Having to be in the same city as the man who stole my mother and now has Ella is too much for me. I’m not going to stay here watching while she goes back to walking around on his arm.

  “I was just having fun with her, it’s over now.”

  “Well you need to stay on track, and next time I call you pick up.”

  “Next time you call and I don’t answer wait for me to call you back” I snap. I’ve never been one to take orders. I throw the phone back on the bar. Whatever I came here to do is over.

  ********

  I’m such a lucky bastard.

  Soon as I walk into Maddox-Fields headquarters the next day I run into Alice. After an awkward greeting I’m forced to ride the elevator up with her, the tension so thick I have to say something.

  “It wasn’t about y
ou.” I say. She looks up surprised that I was bringing it up.

  “Uhh…ok” she begins to bite on her nails.

  “I was sort of involved with someone and it didn’t feel right.” I continue, hoping to ease the self doubt I see in her eyes. “You’re an attractive woman you deserve someone better, trust me.” a smile plays at her lips. “No hard feelings?” I cock an eyebrow at her, offering her my hand in truce.

  She begins to giggle at my playful flirting, “No hard feelings.” She surprises me by disregarding my hand and wrapping her arms around me for a hug.

  “If it doesn’t work out between you and this woman call me,” she whispers into my ear as the door slides open. And of course my luck continues as I peer over her shoulder to see Ella frozen in shock at our embrace. Alice pulls away, winking at me as she scurries out the elevator. “Hey Isabella,” she chirps her mood unmistakably taking a turn for the better.

  She stares at me with her mouth agape until the doors begin to close again. I stop it from closing with my hand, raising a brow in question at her. She shakes her head obviously refusing to be in the same elevator car as me. I let the doors slide shut, closing my eyes and letting out a heavy breath towards the ceiling, trying to ease the tension building in my chest. Ella is going to take an innocent hug and turn it into something lecherous. I wanted to grab her arm and pull her into the elevator but I wouldn’t overstep. I had already fucked up what we had and I didn’t want to cause her any further distress.

  It’s almost laughable how I’ve already been in two very awkward situations in the five minutes since entering the building. I get off the elevator on the floor leading to Lucas’ office. His secretary buzzes me right in as soon as I enter the reception area.

  Lucas is on the phone and promptly makes an excuse to hang up. “What do you want now?” he sighs rubbing his head.